Why do so many people criticize what is outside "the norm"? What is normal? How can people be so cruel to someone who is trying to better themselves, feel better, heal their body minds spirits and souls? I don't think anyone intentionally sets out to be cruel, to put someone down, to hurt someone.
A few months ago I went to visit my sister at a rental property of hers. As I pulled up I could already tell she was in her usual "mode". She was flailing her arms and biting her tong as I pulled up..."don't park there dam it...park here" a simple mistake that anyone could make, she was obviously over reacting.
The tong biting thing had gone on for years. It was something I could never understand. My sister actually gets so angry that she...well...bites her tong. I'm surprised she still has her tong, I've seen it bitten down on thousands upon thousands of times.
At this point I was questioning why I had came but decided to get out and greet her with a smile none the less.
I had brought her raw organic chocolates with goji berries in the center. As we stood in the kitchen she inhaled one of them (ate it in less than a second) without a thank you she tossed the wrapper in the gift bag I had brought them in. Needles to say I was not surprised.
I had been 100%raw for almost a year an occasional piece of fish when I felt that I was "lacking something" I now know I lack nothing from a dead piece of fish.
I followed her into the basement where she showed me the renovations that her and Tony (her significant other" were working on. Then it started...for no apparent reason. Her arms started flailing, tongbiting (I was sure she would loose her tong on this day) the cursing, shouting, and personal put downs followed. YOUR UGLY she shouted....skinny, bony, and ugly. You don't eat do you? You need help, you have an eating disorder. At this point I was questioning again why I had come....I don't recall waking up and feeling the need for abuse that day.
AHH, no, I don't have an eating disorder (recalling the huge avocado salad I had for break feast that was preceded by the 32oz live green vegetable juice with a heaping TB of flax oil. No, I defiantly don't, "then why are you so skinny????" answer me she shouted. At the time I didn't know. I bowed down to her ignorant thinking and agreed to get help (so I could escape from the basement who's walls were beginning to close in on me).
Yes, your right, I have an eating disorder and I need help, would you go with me (I knew this would get her to shut up, screaming was her forte, anything that did not involve chain smoking, cursing, or belligerent behavior wasn't).
As I left, in tears, I was so shaken. I had always been sensitive but somehow being raw, I was going through a detox period that made me even more sensitive. I was upset with myself. Here I was eating in excess of 3-5000 calories per day green juice, oils, 3-4avocado salads pounds of fruit, I could easily throw down 2lbs of fruit at breakfast and would think nothing of throwing down 3avocado salads with half a lb of hemp seeds or other nuts yet...it was going through me at lightning speed??? How could I say I had an eating disorder when I clearly ate more than her and her live in put together??? No...I wasn't choking down dead animals or stuffing myself with Cheetos but I don't crave crap....my cells are so clean that...I DON'T CRAVE CRAP!
